Adventures in Fertility

I always thought keeping up with a blog would be too time consuming. With me being the lazy gal that I am, it did not appeal to me in the least! However, so much has happened in the past few months that I figured I better start keeping up with this so that when my scatterbrain starts to forget, I can look back. Basically for the past year and a half Renan and I have been trying to start a family. Now Renan is one of the most unselfish people I know with a HUGE heart. He has been ready to be a Dad since the day we got married. I however asked him for 3 years to enjoy our time as newlyweds before we went down that road. The truth is I was terrified. Don’t get me wrong, I have always thought I would have children, but even at 25 I still felt SO much like a kid. I was selfish, loved my “me” time, wanted time to be spontaneous, travel, spend money frivoulously…..the list goes on and on. Our first few years of marriage were awesome. Sure we had some huge knockdown drag out fights over ridiculous nonsense, but we travelled to serve on Mission in Brazil three times, vacationed, made new friends. It was overall a blast. I loved having my best friend in my house all the time. Well when 3 years rolled around, my sweet caring husband reminded me of my promise I made to start trying for children! I tried to put him off with a myriad of excuses, but my time was up. We started casually trying right before we left for Disney World in April of 2012. I dont know if I ever voiced this to Ren, but in my head, I was still terrified. We couldn’t afford a baby, I still wanted to be selfish, I still WAS selfish, I had lost 25lbs and I didnt want to ruin my body, I didnt want our relationship to change because I LOVED what we had. But I went along with it and figured if it was meant to be it would happen. That first month, I was actually suprised to find I was not pregnant. I figured becasue I was feeling so NOT ready that of course it would happen. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t somewhat relieved. Well months went on and still nothing. After about 9 months of trying, I spoke to my OBGYN who put me on Clomid to help me ovulate. We did that for 3 months and it gave me horrible HOT flashes so bad that I felt I was going into early menopause! After 3 months of them telling me they didn’t think I was ovulating, I realized, they don’t really know Jack about how to GET someone pregnant. They only specialize in how to care for you after you are already preggo! So I was referred to ART Fertility Specialists in Brookwood Hospital. More to come……….